random is the name

yet another pointless random post.

i gonna say even thou i heavily criticised people here. its often due to over-generalisation and hot headedness. by no means am i saying bad things abt this country, abt the people here. i love it here, at times. and i love the people here, some people. and hopefully i'll miss this place, i guess.

anyway i jus COCed for my duties at my camp. COC is a navy term for certificate of competency, or wadever it is supposed to mean, but its something like that. navy like to use terms that are different from others. u know. to give themselves an identity out there in the lonely sea. can drive people kinda nuts haha. one example, in navy, when u go to work at a certain place, it is called 'close up'. and when u finish work and come back, its called 'secure'. took my infantry trained brain a while to get used to.

i've living quite a wasteful life these couple of months. been partying a hell lot. almost twice a week. wondered why i turned out this way. maybe its the loneliness i feel in camp? maybe it the lack of female companion? maybe the lack of close pals i use to see so often? who knows? but one thing is for sure. its not doing me much good. alot of money going to waste man. should jus stay home and listen to the carpenters and johnny cash haha.

went out with my ocs frens for steamboat today. reli had a good time. did some catching up. its good everyone is still the old self. still retarded. still making fun of each other. the same old faces. the same old jokes. i know i've probably said it a million times, but i reli reli miss the times back then. and meeting up with the guys jus make me miss it more.

been listening to alot of oldies recently. and this song 'the carpenters - yesterday once more' jus stirs up so much emotion in me.

When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.

Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

jus like how it was sang in the song. i can still rmb last time in pri sch, both parents working late to earn a living. i spend most of my nights listening to 100.3fm (the old one not ufm and yea i listen to chinese last time cos dunno english), hoping for my fav song to play. at that time i can still rmb its ya zi by su hui lun and guan huai fang shi by chen han wei. those were lonely times and a nice song on the radio reli can put a smile on my face.

and i had so much good times not so long ago. with frens, with classmates, with fellow soldiers. everytime i meet up with these people, the memories all come flooding back. all the jokes, all the topics that we use to talk about.

and then everytime its time to move on, heartbreak again. time and time again. batch after batch. bonds are forged but we still have to part in the end. i dun cry lah but close to it.

and alot of times i look back to what i have achieved in the past. what i have done in the past years. although its only been what, around 10 years of mature thinking (okay maybe semi-mature), but i can see myself changing so much over the years. dun you too?

and all these memories, the unforgetable ones, the ones that will stay in my heart forever, they reli melt the years away when i meet up with whom i had those memories with. the times i spent in jc, brunei, taiwan, they seem like jus yesterday. and i can even rmb some of the tiny winy details during those times.

i also dunno why suddenly i'm missing the past so badly. maybe cos i'm not enjoying my life as much as i've had before. probably. sometimes i kind of regret alot of choices i made in the past. sometimes i wish that i could turn back time and relive some parts of my life. i dunno abt u. but have u thought of, jus imagine that u can relive your past 5 years, how much more u can achieve? its been a rough journey for me, filled with ups and downs, full of close shaves, plenty of extra road walked. looking forward, i cant see as clearly as i thought i did. yes. maybe thats what's been making me look back. kind of instinctive i guess. cant see forward, or dun dare to look forward, one will look back.

nothing much to say at this point of time. actually its an excuse cos my wow update finish already. haha. off to some online gaming hahaha. no lifer.....

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